Six Years Earlier

I learned the rest of it in pieces, the way children learn everything important, by being underfoot during conversations adults thought were private.

My father had an affair with Marisol the year before I was born, brief, according to my grandmother's account years later, and ended the moment my mother found out she was pregnant with me. Marisol left the household. Nine months after that, she came back, quietly, asking not for money but for a job, because she had a baby and nowhere else steady enough to raise him.

My father agreed on one condition: Teddy would be raised in the house, given every advantage the Ashworth name could buy, and never, under any circumstances, be told or allowed to guess who his mother actually was.

"It was the closest thing to right I knew how to do," I heard my father tell my grandmother once, years later, in a voice I didn't recognize as his. "I couldn't erase what happened. I could at least make sure the boy never wanted for anything."

What he never seemed to calculate was what it would cost Marisol to spend seven years three floors away from a son who called someone else Mommy, or what it would cost Teddy to grow up reaching, without knowing why, for the one woman in that enormous house who was never allowed to reach back.